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Friday, April 9, 2021

Daydreaming On Paper Prompt: List Your Favorite Things

 I was actually going to skip this. But I realized that I have been neglecting myself, yet again, because I take a backseat to everything else in my life. So without further ado, a list of my favorite things!


  • Lilacs: My childhood home was like a wilderness in my young eyes. I had a full garden, a giant crab-apple tree, a grape vine, and flowers everywhere. We even had a rose vine growing up the back of the house. But my favorite thing was the lilac bush out front. It was entwined with a honeysuckle bush, and was HUGE. It was the best scent and visual ever.
  • Lemon: I love the flavor, the color, the scent. My dream kitchen is lemony colored. (It makes me hungry)
  • Cats: I love all animals. I have a chinchilla/jerkface rodent that I adore. However, cats will forever be my favorite. My life feels incomplete without one in my home (We haven't had one in recent years as my ex is allergic).
  • The Tenth Kingdom: This is my feel good mini-series. Anytime I am upset, this goes on. It is so dumb at points, but I love it.
  • Hot wings: By far my favorite food. Luckily it is also my boyfriend's favorite, so we eat them often.
  • Blue: I love the color blue. In any form.
  • Eric Clapton: My favorite guitarist/vocalist of all time. Any song he does is like heaven to me.
  • Nintendo 64: I am super mad at myself for selling my last one. This system has so many memories; The re-releases are nothing compared to the originals in my mind.
  • Truly fairy-like areas: We went to see the fairy houses on South Mountain Trail last week. However, the area around it was my favorite. Trees, a babbling brook/waterfall type spot, filtered sunlight. I could have stayed there forever.
I am sure there are more, but these stand out to me.

Thursday, April 8, 2021

I Made Myself Sick: A Lesson In Self Care

 I woke up yesterday, after barely any sleep, feeling like I had been run over by 3 Mack trucks. I went to work and realized there was no way I was going to be an asset to my office. They also knew that, and sent me home to rest. (Side note: My work actually cares about their people.) No clue how I made it home in one piece as I was exhausted. I slept for 7 hours straight, starting as soon as I got home, and then I slept through the night.


I went through a period of exhaustion a few weeks ago as well. However, I had nothing going on that day. I didn't know why I was so tired at that time, as I had a relaxing weekend. Now I know:


I have neglected myself.


I have been so worried about making sure my family was provided for and taken care of that YET AGAIN I have let myself suffer. Sure, I do superficial crap like buy myself a few cute trinkets, or play Animal Crossing. However, I have not been fully providing for myself. I stopped doing my daily tarot reading. I don't spend time outside every day. I am not making sure my nutrient levels are okay (I am iron deficient, and let me tell you, I can tell if it's too low).


I need to start holding myself accountable. Doing things to bring me joy, and health, and sticking with them.


Because if you don't care for yourself, who will?