Into The Unknown

I decided to quit.

I have been at my company for over a year, and before that, I was at a competitor for 4 years. I know my job by heart. But, lately, I have been unhappy. I looked into leaving a few months ago, but I was promised a few things that kept me here. I'm just worn out, and I need a change.


I got a new job, in technically the same industry, but a completely different aspect. I'm excited, but terrified! OMG, I have a desk job. I haven't had one of those in forever. I'm in a Monday through Friday gig. Like, what do I do about this?!?!


This is a great thing for myself and my family. I no longer have to worry about scheduling trips for the weekends and requesting off and praying I get approved. I will have a set schedule, and I can actually enjoy weekends with my children! I'll still have my overnight job (I love it there, and the benefits are phenomenal, I'm never leaving LOL). But, I feel free. I'll still be working the same amount of time, but I feel like I have so much more now. I feel peaceful for the first time in I don't even know how long.


You know what I did last week? I made a list of events happening in my area that I would like to go to, all of which are on Saturdays. And guess what? I CAN GO TO THEM!!!!!!


Next week starts the rest of my life, in a new career, with a new path. I am thrilled to go into the unknown, even when it's scary for me. My question is, CAN YOU SAY THE SAME? Are you on the path you should be on, or are you stuck standing still because you are scared?

Don't stop moving when it's scary, because the other side could be the greatest thing to ever happen to you.

Outside Is Life

I work all day. That's not so bad... ok that's a lie.

First, let me start by saying, I like my job. I love the people I work with. We are a family, and I see them more than my real family on some days. However. I work in a giant dusty warehouse with no windows. Half the time I get surprised by the weather when I open the door. This is what kills me.

I crave the outdoors. I have always been a wild child. When I was little, you couldn't keep shoes on me, and I was outside pretty much all day. My neighborhood was full of wonder and I explored every inch of it. I even go back there when I feel lost and can't find my way back to myself.

The wild child is still inside me, screaming for sunlight and fresh air. I stand at the bay doors and drink it in, only for the doors to be shut with me inside. It's like a prison for my soul. 😔

Yesterday, I was gifted something that made the wild child in me sing with joy.... which says a lot considering I disliked this when I was younger. I was given two houseplants!!! I know, how lame is it that I am soooo excited. But, having these plants is like having nature right there with me, even when I'm inside. Obviously I took them home, because they would either die or get thrown away. I managed to marry a vampire (he hates letting the sun into the house, lol) so my place is always dark and dreary. Luckily, these little green things need low light. Yay!

I can't even describe how much joy I felt this morning coming into the kitchen to see LIFE. Especially in this era where we destroy wildlife to make vacant houses, we need plants more than ever. Hopefully the little guys thrive and grow and give joy to my whole household for years to come.