Slump

So I have a problem. Im having issues keeping up with my workouts and water intake. I try really hard, but it's so hard for me to be likd, "ok I've played enough WoW, let's do some lifting". Last time I worked out was last Saturday. I'm obviously not happy about it.

I also know I am not the only one who has had this problem. So I ask: what helped you grt over your slump?

Dread misconceptions

Crappy picture. Sorry.

So this post will not be formatted since I am doing it from my phone.

I wanted to make a short post about the ridiculous things I have heard since I put my dreads in. It's been almost 2 months, and I love them, but I'm tired of so much judgement! What do tou get from it?! Here's a few things I would like to clear up...

-I did not do this because I'm trying to "be black". And yes that is exactly how people say it to me. I put my dreads in after I had been soul searching for a while. I had tried to do it sooner, but the judgement stopped me. Now I realized I was compelled by my own nature.

-Along that same line of thinking, no, I cannot ask that dude with the awesome dreads where he got it done, for two reasons. One, I do not have the same hair type as African-Americans. Two, I want to do it myself, my own way. I can look at myself and be proud that I did it myself, with positivity weaved into all of it.

-I wash my hair. Not as much as I used to, however. I used to wash my hair every other day. Now, it's once a week. Which is good! Come to find out, I was making my hair oily by washing it more. Also, my hair is growing way faster now.

-No, I don't have lice. Just because my head itches does not mean bugs are living in my hair. I would freak out and shave it all off if that ever happened. I work in an environment that is crazy dusty which makes me itch.

-Also, it's normal for me to have dandruff. Whenever the weather changes my scalp freaks out. The only reason it's more noticeable now is cuz I can't just rub a heavy moisturizer into my hair.

Ok. That's it for my crazy rant. Next week I will post a normal entry, as well as a new youtube video.

Love you all!

New video

Watch "Be yourself" on YouTube
Hey guys! Just a quick link to the video I said I would do today!

My Plans Today + Excitement!

Good morning everyone!

I should so not be awake right now. I worked til 1:15am, and didn't get to sleep til around 3. But I woke up at 8 and couldn't get back to sleep, so here I am!

So I have a crazy amount of ideas for what I want to do today. Will I do them all? NOPE. But if I get some done I will be happy.

• study for my ASE exam... which is in a week
• learn all I can about "The High Priestess" tarot card (it's the one I pulled today)
• work out
• make a video and post to youtube
• look for a suitable board to use as my altar
• do dishes
• paint my nails
• go for a walk
• hula hoop
• watch some Warehouse 13 episodes

Fun stuff, right? Yeah my life is boring.

Now for all the exciting things going on for me. I am expecting 5 packages in the mail within the week. One is my Shakeology, which I saved money on by signing up for HomeDirect. Two are movies (Mulan 1 and 2 + Three Men and a Baby). The last two are necklaces. I bought a chakra pendant for me, and a rose quartz heart for my daughter.

Another exciting thing: my dreads. They are coming along quite nicely. Which is why I want to make a video showing them off.

Lastly, in a little over a month, I get to see my boyfriend's parents. After two years of dating. Ugh. I already know how it will go. BADLY. But that is perfectly okay, because at least I can say I made every attempt to reach out to them, and they refused to try.

Alright, time to get moving. WHOOOO!!!!

Have a blessed day, love you!

Facebook Page Shoutout!

Today's post is going to be a shameless plug. Not for me. For my amazing best friend, Ari.

This is her wearing a wrap she made. Awesome! Sorry, I am so totally in love with these things. This style is a mei tai carrier. Super easy to use, and not bulky.

She also makes ring slings, soaps, breastfeeding shirts, and most recently, CLOTH DIAPERS!!! Yay!

So yeah, I totally love her and her products, so go check her out, and like her page!

I don't know where to begin

This is just an update.

I put dreads in my hair! I needed a change and to have a way to ground myself. So far working pretty well. It's been one month, and I feel a lot more centered.

Also, I have started writing poems again.... and fully embracing who I am. And that is, not a Christian. OMG WHAT?!

I have realized that although I believe in Christ as my savior, I believe in nature more. It heals me. As horrible as it sounds, prayer has never worked for me. It has always been so unnatural to me. Going outside and absorbing the energy of nature has brought me peace, and comfort.

I am not religious. I am spiritual. I do not worship the devil. I believe in balance in everything.

Sorry to those who now hate me and are offended by my beliefs. I will leave you with this. It is not your place to judge. If I am wrong in my beliefs, when I meet God he will judge me accordingly. Our job is to love everyone, because we have all been created for a purpose.

Thank you.

Things I Can't Live Without

I know I'm falling behind on my posts.... again. I have such a hard time keeping a schedule. So I have decided to do a post about all the things I cannot live without.

Phone

This is obvious. I use my phone to stay connected. I have a Samsung Galaxy S3. Wheee!!! Smartphones are awesome. The apps save my life. My favorites are: Facebook, Shopkick, MyFitnessPal, Pandora, Alice of Hearts, Soundhound, and of course my flashlight. Trust me, when you are trying to find a plug in a dark car with a customer hovering over you, it comes in handy.

Books

I love, love, love to read. It calms my mind, and gets me away from my stress. Right now I am reading this one.

 

 

I had read the first book in this series a few years ago, and just now got around to reading the sequel. Pretty good so far. It's about a girl who hunts evil, all while trying to keep a cop from falling in love with her.

 

I used to be into just fantasy books, but lately I've gotten into murder mysteries as well.

 

 

Music

 

 

Music literally rules my life. I can't function properly without it. I do all my chores with headphones on. When I get super angry (because of my Bipolarness) I put on music and rock out. It calms me down, and gives me energy when I need it.

 

Animals

 

I am a hardcore animal lover. Since I was born, I have always had at least one cat or dog.

This was my cat Gussy. He was my partner in crime til I was about 13. He let me do ridiculous things to him and still loved me. He died when he was about 28 years old, or so I'm told by my father. He was the last cat from his litter (we had the mom and 3 kittens). I was devastated when he died. A year later my dad got me two new kittens. I still have one, along with 4 of their offspring, plus a dog and two lizards.

My Family

This is pretty obvious. These people are my whole world. I would be lost without them. Actually, this picture is missing two people: my father, who is my hero, and my Earthson, Declan. Declan was just born at the end of February. I love him and his big sister as if they were my own. It's funny how I am closer to my "friendfamily" than my blood relatives.

Notice I did not list my car. Because I don't need it. I love to walk. Nature is soothing and is meant to be enjoyed and protected. Now that it's warm out again I can be outside more! Yay!

Alright, I will wrap up here by saying I hope you have a wonderful week!

 



One Step Closer

This is gonna be short, simple, and oh so sweet.

I weighed myself yesterday. I'm up 5 pounds. However, I also measured myself. I am shrinking! So that means I'm heavy with muscle. Yay!!!! I'm going to have to make a FitTip on this today. The scale can be misleading. But measuring tape and mirrors will show you your true progress.

Another reason why I am excited today: I am picking up my breadmaker!!! A family of 4 goes through bread really fast. Especially when we eat sandwiches for lunch every day. So I figured making bread at home would save money. And I can know exactly what is going into my family's mouth. Which is good because when my daughter is not with me, she eats horribly... or not at all.

My daughter has anxiety that makes her stomach hurt sometimes. Food does not affect it in any way. Yet, a lot of times, she will come home saying she didn't eat. Which upsets me. I trust people to take care of my daughter. That means making sure she gets the right nutrition. But, I am ignored. Instead I hear: "We know how to raise a child", "She is your first child", etc. Why should that make a difference? She is MY child. I know what's good for her. Not you.

Sorry for the mini rant. Trust me, I stopped with way more to say.

Back to good.

I have decided to get up earlier to fit out a workout first thing in the morning! Started yesterday. It felt amazing to get it done, and I had energy all day! Totally worth a go for the procrastinators out there.

Alright I'm done, gotta go work out! Have a beautiful day everyone!

ShakeO review

So, with part of my tax return, I bought two... yes you read that right, TWO Shakeology packs. One is the Tropical Strawberry, which I have tried before and love, and one was the improved Chocolate. This is my review of these.

Tropical Strawberry

This was the first ever Shakeology I tried. And it is great! It's got a great flavor on its on, but it's also so versatile. It can be mixed with juice, water, milk, fruits, veggies, and a lot more. Even with just milk, it's filling, and thick like a shake you would have to blend with ice cream. AMAZING!!!!

Chocolate

So, I was nervous to try this one, for numerous reasons. I am not a huge fan of chocolate, especially homemade chocolate shakes. They taste funky to me. Also, the old "improved" chocolate was getting a lot of bad reviews on taste. Luckily they have fixed it. I am addicted to it! I have drank it mixed with just milk every day for about two weeks, and am so happy with it. It's rich, smooth, and filling.

General Info

These shakes are amazing. Not only do they taste great, they are filling and healthy. But that is not my favorite part. They help you lose weight in numerous ways. It helps curb cravings, and is made from natural ingredients with no added crap. I drink one in the morning, and am good till around 2pm. I also have issues with snacking. I have noticed lately that my insatiable appetite has decreased significantly... which is a good thing since I am surrounded by candy all day long. Bleh!

Needless to say, I am hooked on this product. It helps me maintain a healthy weight, and keeps me strong and awake all day. And, it's safe for children as well! Plus, when you do the math, it's so much cheaper than trying to buy everything that makes up the vitamins and nutrients in it.

Is it worth it to have a better, healthier life? I think so.

Quick update

So. I have a secret! It's crazy, and life changing, and I'm so excited!!!!

But I can't tell. Sorry.

I can say that I have low self esteem, and this is one of the many things I am moving forward on to help that.

Also, I have been thinking about getting more tattoos. I have a few in mind, just need the funds.





In other craziness... my daughter. It's so hard to raise her to be her own person and follow her own path when there is always someone telling her she MUST believe certain things. They fill her head with "facts" that aren't true, but because of who tells her these things, she now believes everyone else is lying. I don't know how to handle this, other than to just push forward and try to open her mind little by little.


Ok, that's all I got. Hopefully I will blog again soon!