I woke up yesterday, after barely any sleep, feeling like I had been run over by 3 Mack trucks. I went to work and realized there was no way I was going to be an asset to my office. They also knew that, and sent me home to rest. (Side note: My work actually cares about their people.) No clue how I made it home in one piece as I was exhausted. I slept for 7 hours straight, starting as soon as I got home, and then I slept through the night.
I went through a period of exhaustion a few weeks ago as well. However, I had nothing going on that day. I didn't know why I was so tired at that time, as I had a relaxing weekend. Now I know:
I have neglected myself.
I have been so worried about making sure my family was provided for and taken care of that YET AGAIN I have let myself suffer. Sure, I do superficial crap like buy myself a few cute trinkets, or play Animal Crossing. However, I have not been fully providing for myself. I stopped doing my daily tarot reading. I don't spend time outside every day. I am not making sure my nutrient levels are okay (I am iron deficient, and let me tell you, I can tell if it's too low).
I need to start holding myself accountable. Doing things to bring me joy, and health, and sticking with them.
Because if you don't care for yourself, who will?
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